Dearest Desiree:
'Just 'cause I'm an old billy goat gruff, who waits at the stone bridge, my purpose is to ward off unfriendlier strangers who might vandalize our efforts here in Warwick off Canterbury in Chopperfield, just west of Sheepfold Nottingham. Let me explain:
..when a woman loves a man she is very motivated to make duplicates of herself. to do that she of course needs the spirit and DNA of a partner she favors... that's where I fit in, Mom really favors me, and says she cannot stay mad at me.
That is how our combo-platter of beauty and wit, smarts and personality, brilliance and passion is born -- you at 3:58 AM one 1993 winter morn. It did snow a few flurries as neighbors ran in to see the miracle, and your wise Nanna landed at O'hare field, just like in Jesus' days. You were surrounded with impassioned mothers and fathers.
You have humble beginnings, yes, but it means you were most wanted, because we made special time for your pregnancy. It will be repeated during your lifetime, just wait and see. You have never been a second thought, but original choice made by your parents (and a few hundred cousins, aunts, twice removed nieces and nephews, brothers sister, uncles... )
Your days have been your own all your life starting on that predawn morning, so far, no one has taken over your life in any way. choices you make have been very good, and if there is a glitch it is forgiven before it even happens.
i have the role as guard of the bridge, billy goat gruff, and i like being that for you an
d Pat2,because it is a role I not only play, but also a role I am learning. however, all the guarding in the world cannot keep you from living, struggling, and encountering formidable foes and trolls along the spanse of your time-line bridge. i function best as the one who might gather you up when you fall, or dance with you when no one else will do. Your strength is in knowing who you are and how you fit in. It is the guiding light in all your encounters.
it is not easy for you but please learn in your heart your own answer for "Why Dad is so gruff?" and then you can know more about the nature of conquering fear, and having daily break-throughs. 'Like one of my era songs: "...your father's hell will slowly go bye..." (Crosby, Stills, and Nash)
Have you ever noticed -- each of my breakdowns is followed by one of your break-throughs!?
Our first effort together has been my wish for you to be very comfortable with a good understanding of profound supreme knowledge of where you landed once out of Mommy! For instance know how special you are, as in what your name means... So allow me review how you fulfill your name in all its meanings:
Who are you?
Desiree is the desire of mankinds' desiring joy, Bach wrote it, and your Mommy joyously called you that while you were gently kicking her tummy. For nine months you were intra-womb, Mom and Dad took you to sing every Sunday at a little cliquish church that was so full of passion that I often wonder how we managed to be part of that, but we were and did, and Mommy over came her fear of singing in front of people.
We were like the gospel duet every Sunday morning. Mom and I stood with microphone in hands in front of the small congreagation, and sang as you swam her womb. Believe you me you remember those songs. When you were just born you would turn your head toward us when we sang them, we were so cool, with lots of beat and syncopation....
Marie Cay -- first it rhymes with Desiree, and it is my thoughts of what is desired by most all the world, it is a cozy cay where at high tide a sail boat can be anchored and secured overnight, while the people go ashore and camp under a star filled night. We have had some of that when we built campfires and stayed outside till you and Patrick fall asleep in our laps... only to be wakened for a few minutes to brush your teeth.
Marie is one of several names given to the universal woman, a spirit of all religious-political-anthropological connections, of all cultures around the earth. Other names are like Venus, Eve, and so on. In all cases it represents mother of hope. In the end there are three things -- there is hope, faith and charity. Charity is another word for love. Love is a part of a mathematical triad of these three, and one will not exist without the other. Add those three corners together to equal 180 degrees that is your timeline stretching into eternity in both directions. Each one of the corners of this triangle is represented in all human relationships, and more importantly, in your and god's communications to each other.. growing older lets you have the time to encounter each of our three sacred values.
Ruggiero represents the magic that is part of every child's universe. Not only do you slay dragons in chopperfield, you fly with ease to Italia and rest and relax with your wise and beautiful aunts and uncles, zia y zio's. Or to parlay in deus machina. Part Texan, part Illinoisian, large part Foggian; and that's a fact, no brag; just fact.
Darnell is a humble word which means the chaff that is blown away when wheat is tossed up in the wind. It is a technique that is used by gleaners and farmers, and also God. We are a bundle of unwanted gentle gentile chaff that would have been thrown off, and left to cover the sacred ground, if not for hope, faith and love that lifts us to sacred levels. for your name alone you are special, and sacred , and for me my one person of eight I most want to guard. As you will see for all the years hence most guards are gruffs, billy goats ready to butt heads with any three trolls...
Our next event to conquer is about responsibility. This is a confusing word because it really means ability to respond, not the other mundane and over used meaning. my ability to respond has been destroyed as of late and i am trying to regroup but fell like am sliding down a slope at all levels of response.
There is my birthday wish for "us" and not a minute too soon, probably late and that is because you came out like a spinning top, and spinning in such a glorious way, that i became enamoured in your ease and lucidity. thank you for comin
g on down here to my lowly state of darnel to be my daughter. you changed my life forever, for the best, from the moment mommy said your name to me.
I Love U Doo Doo Dooseroo!! Daddy
'Just 'cause I'm an old billy goat gruff, who waits at the stone bridge, my purpose is to ward off unfriendlier strangers who might vandalize our efforts here in Warwick off Canterbury in Chopperfield, just west of Sheepfold Nottingham. Let me explain:
..when a woman loves a man she is very motivated to make duplicates of herself. to do that she of course needs the spirit and DNA of a partner she favors... that's where I fit in, Mom really favors me, and says she cannot stay mad at me.
That is how our combo-platter of beauty and wit, smarts and personality, brilliance and passion is born -- you at 3:58 AM one 1993 winter morn. It did snow a few flurries as neighbors ran in to see the miracle, and your wise Nanna landed at O'hare field, just like in Jesus' days. You were surrounded with impassioned mothers and fathers.You have humble beginnings, yes, but it means you were most wanted, because we made special time for your pregnancy. It will be repeated during your lifetime, just wait and see. You have never been a second thought, but original choice made by your parents (and a few hundred cousins, aunts, twice removed nieces and nephews, brothers sister, uncles... )
Your days have been your own all your life starting on that predawn morning, so far, no one has taken over your life in any way. choices you make have been very good, and if there is a glitch it is forgiven before it even happens.
i have the role as guard of the bridge, billy goat gruff, and i like being that for you an
d Pat2,because it is a role I not only play, but also a role I am learning. however, all the guarding in the world cannot keep you from living, struggling, and encountering formidable foes and trolls along the spanse of your time-line bridge. i function best as the one who might gather you up when you fall, or dance with you when no one else will do. Your strength is in knowing who you are and how you fit in. It is the guiding light in all your encounters.it is not easy for you but please learn in your heart your own answer for "Why Dad is so gruff?" and then you can know more about the nature of conquering fear, and having daily break-throughs. 'Like one of my era songs: "...your father's hell will slowly go bye..." (Crosby, Stills, and Nash)
Have you ever noticed -- each of my breakdowns is followed by one of your break-throughs!?
Our first effort together has been my wish for you to be very comfortable with a good understanding of profound supreme knowledge of where you landed once out of Mommy! For instance know how special you are, as in what your name means... So allow me review how you fulfill your name in all its meanings:
Who are you?
Desiree is the desire of mankinds' desiring joy, Bach wrote it, and your Mommy joyously called you that while you were gently kicking her tummy. For nine months you were intra-womb, Mom and Dad took you to sing every Sunday at a little cliquish church that was so full of passion that I often wonder how we managed to be part of that, but we were and did, and Mommy over came her fear of singing in front of people.
We were like the gospel duet every Sunday morning. Mom and I stood with microphone in hands in front of the small congreagation, and sang as you swam her womb. Believe you me you remember those songs. When you were just born you would turn your head toward us when we sang them, we were so cool, with lots of beat and syncopation....
Marie Cay -- first it rhymes with Desiree, and it is my thoughts of what is desired by most all the world, it is a cozy cay where at high tide a sail boat can be anchored and secured overnight, while the people go ashore and camp under a star filled night. We have had some of that when we built campfires and stayed outside till you and Patrick fall asleep in our laps... only to be wakened for a few minutes to brush your teeth.Marie is one of several names given to the universal woman, a spirit of all religious-political-anthropological connections, of all cultures around the earth. Other names are like Venus, Eve, and so on. In all cases it represents mother of hope. In the end there are three things -- there is hope, faith and charity. Charity is another word for love. Love is a part of a mathematical triad of these three, and one will not exist without the other. Add those three corners together to equal 180 degrees that is your timeline stretching into eternity in both directions. Each one of the corners of this triangle is represented in all human relationships, and more importantly, in your and god's communications to each other.. growing older lets you have the time to encounter each of our three sacred values.
Ruggiero represents the magic that is part of every child's universe. Not only do you slay dragons in chopperfield, you fly with ease to Italia and rest and relax with your wise and beautiful aunts and uncles, zia y zio's. Or to parlay in deus machina. Part Texan, part Illinoisian, large part Foggian; and that's a fact, no brag; just fact.
Darnell is a humble word which means the chaff that is blown away when wheat is tossed up in the wind. It is a technique that is used by gleaners and farmers, and also God. We are a bundle of unwanted gentle gentile chaff that would have been thrown off, and left to cover the sacred ground, if not for hope, faith and love that lifts us to sacred levels. for your name alone you are special, and sacred , and for me my one person of eight I most want to guard. As you will see for all the years hence most guards are gruffs, billy goats ready to butt heads with any three trolls...
Our next event to conquer is about responsibility. This is a confusing word because it really means ability to respond, not the other mundane and over used meaning. my ability to respond has been destroyed as of late and i am trying to regroup but fell like am sliding down a slope at all levels of response.
There is my birthday wish for "us" and not a minute too soon, probably late and that is because you came out like a spinning top, and spinning in such a glorious way, that i became enamoured in your ease and lucidity. thank you for comin
g on down here to my lowly state of darnel to be my daughter. you changed my life forever, for the best, from the moment mommy said your name to me.I Love U Doo Doo Dooseroo!! Daddy
